(Or How I Learned To Cook)
What kind of cook are you? Can you wander into the kitchen, rummage through the fridge and cabinets and create a masterpiece? Or would you struggle to make scrambled eggs without a recipe?
I am very much the latter (and yes, I did get my scrambled egg recipe from a book. Don't judge, they're so much tastier now!!)
Until I moved to the US in 2011 I didn't really cook. I had zero kitchen confidence and the last thing I wanted to do after a long day was get to work in the kitchen. Luckily for me my late husband was one of the aforementioned geniuses who could whip up a gourmet meal from nothing and we had a good arrangement where he took care of the cooking and I took care of the rest of the domestic chores.
Long before the move, though, I had started my cookbook habit. When I worked in the bank there was a book club that would drop by every now and then and leave a random selection for us to peruse. There would be everything from romances to thrillers, kids books, and occasionally a cookbook.
Leafing through the delicious recipes I began to dream of being able to create these dishes and, with good intentions, I started my cookbook collection. The problem was I was too lazy to do anything other than read and drool over them!! It became an office joke that I was the proud owner of the most pristine cookbook collection in Glasgow - no bent pages or food splatter on my books!!
Once we moved to the States I had the luxury of being a housewife and with time on my hands I decided it was time for me to learn to cook. With my husband working hard all day, the least I could do was feed him when he got home!!
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My main collection |
I remember one of the first meals I made for him in the tiny kitchen of the temporary apartment we lived in for the first couple of months until we got settled. Surprisingly it was something I decided to make up - a pork and bean stew that I couldn't make again if I tried, and I have tried! I was very nervous about how it would turn out, and very happy when he walked through the door and told me he could smell the stew walking down the corridor and had hoped that it was coming from our apartment!
Dinner that night was a resounding success, but that was the stretch of my culinary imagination, and my shiny cookbook collection, along with most of our possessions, was still in transit and not due to arrive for another couple of months. Thus began my new habit - recipe magazines!
I started off with the Food Network magazine and Cooking Light, which had simple recipes that were suited to my skill level. Soon I was picking up any new foodie magazine I could find and clipping out anything that looked fun. I had to get a filing box to store and organise them all!!
Despite having an extensive amount of recipes to try, and the arrival of my books, it wasn't long before I picked up my third habit - recipe mailing lists. Bon Appetit! Epicurious! Serious Eats! Every time I saw a link to a new website or blog I would sign up, and at one point I was getting links to 40 or so recipes every day!
Now, not all of these recipes were things I wanted to try but I was probably printing out 15 or 20 new recipes a week and adding them to my filing box. It was ridiculous! I had enough recipes to feed us for a good couple of years, but still I kept adding to the collection!
No-one was more surprised than I to discover that I had a real passion for cooking, and people often don't believe that I have only been cooking for 4 years. Don't get me wrong, I mess things up as often as I get them right, but I don't think Ive ever made anything that was actually inedible!
Many people have asked me if I was bored being a housewife and the answer was always a very firm no! A large part of my perfect day was spending a little time looking through my recipes and deciding what to make, wandering round to the grocery store to get my fresh ingredients, then putting some music on and spending an afternoon dancing around the kitchen while I peeled and chopped. It was very therapeutic and rewarding to transform basic ingredients into something magical, even if the end result wasn't always quite as I hoped.
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My overflow collection (not including the box in the garage ...) |
I am prone to being over-ambitious in the kitchen now and love challenging myself. One of my greatest pleasures is cooking for friends, and one of my biggest downfalls is choosing to try something new and elaborate when I'm throwing a dinner party. Anyone who has attended one of my soirees has probably witnessed me running around the kitchen, exasperated, trying to get things finished instead of relaxing with my guests and a glass of wine. I should probably spend more time improving and perfecting dishes that I have already tried but I simply cannot resist the temptation to try something new!
My cooking habits have changed over the last couple of years. When my husband was diagnosed with stomach cancer he completely lost his appetite. It seemed cruel to make myself something delicious when he couldn't eat it, and often just the smell of food was enough to make him feel ill. He passed away a few months later and I lost the will to cook - aside from the grief, it felt pointless to go to all that effort just for me.
That was actually one of the reasons I started this blog - it was a way to try and motivate myself back in to the kitchen. I wanted to try and discover simple recipes that weren't a chore, or things that maybe took longer to prepare but would freeze or keep well in the fridge. My posts have been sporadic at best, but I am always looking for and trying new things with the blog in mind.
When I met my new boyfriend it was another incentive to get cooking again and it was fun to dig out some of my favorite recipes and make an effort in the kitchen again. He is also a huge foodie (and another of those bloody geniuses I spoke of earlier!) and loves to cook and I have enjoyed sharing the kitchen and trying new things as his cooking style is very different to mine. Perhaps I will feature some of his creations here in the future?
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My mostly pristine recent purchases |
Recently, I have managed to get the magazine and mailing list habits under control by unsubscribing to most of the lists and subscribing to a couple of magazines that are less about getting something on the table and more about gourmet cooking and improving your skills.
There is no end to the book habit though. There's always something new coming out and I just can't help myself! Amazon is a dangerous place to browse and they know me too well now - they keep emailing me with new releases and like a sucker I click on that link!
And before you ask, yes, many of these are just as pristine as those first books I bought over a decade ago! Although the problem now is not so much a lack of time or will to cook but too much choice! I love sitting down with a pile of cookbooks - old or new - and just reading through them like a novel. I get all inspired and excited, and then confused as I don't know what I want to make first!
I have considered choosing a book a month to work from, and while that would work with some of the more generic ones, I can't see my carnivorous boyfriend being too happy if I spend a month cooking from one of my many vegetarian books, or my waistline if I only made things from French Comfort Food!
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My other passion - baking! |
However I choose to do it, I am determined to dive into my books more and keep honing my kitchen skills, and hopefully a few of those recipes will be worthy of being shared here.
Oh, and I will definitely be buying more cookbooks - you can count on that!!!